Welcoming 2010.

Things I would like to accomplish in this coming year:
1. Get a better job.
2. Live better.
3. Learn to be forgiving.
4. Learn to make better use of time.
5. Aware of and be able to accept my very own limit.
6. Stop hating people for their wrongdoing.
7. Try to be happy every day.
8. Make more friends =)
9. Learn to be thankful for what I have but not hateful for what I don't have.
10. Change myself for the better but not try to change the others to fit myself. :S

Hopefully, by the end of 2010, I would have accomplished all of those listed above. Let's see how this will turn out then. =P

First Stop

This blog has now become my own record sheet for the progress of grad school as I'm sure no one is reading this anymore since I really am not a person who likes to update her blog routinely. As I'm sitting in a library, there is this old man snoring on a couch and there are some high school kids studying for their exams (I can tell from how serious they look when they read and, c'mon, I've there...they just don't study until the last minute).
Anyway, this is to officially say that I'm finally done with my first quarter in grad school. It's been painful and hectic. And there's been ups and downs, which I don't tend to forget as they are stories I've learned from this tiny portion of my life. Recalling from the night right before the finals, I was thinking about how to commit a perfect murder as for one of the questions that was going to be on one of my finals. In grad school, there is just no absolute right and wrong answers for the problems, and, the most important thing is that I will have to do/write things with good reasons. I finally understand that grad school is all about questioning everything that I learn and trying to come up with ways for better results (which is a total opposition to what I've been taught my whole life). After all, everything does happen for a reason. The question is whether you can take it or not.

Awesome trip~

I got to go somewhere finally~So I went to Universal Studios yesterday, and it was awesome. By the way, I just found out I'm not that fearless after all which you may find it surprising...despite the fact that I love horror movies, roller coaster and stuff =P. Too bad the Jurassic Park ride was closed though...but I did get on the Simpson's ride. OMG, it was awesome. But in returns, I feel like my neck was falling apart after that....but who cares?! I had fun..yay~

do i believe in Him?

I mean I've got nth to lose for believing in Him. But I just think that it already takes me long enough to believe in a person, it would take me much longer to believe in someone or something that I dunno if it even exists. It doesn't just take me the length of a movie or a person's sharing time to make me believe. Those who did, I doubt if that's real. Just because you prayed and claimed that you have accepted Him, does that make you a better person already, does it make you a christian, or does it mean that He accepts you as well? People all talked about how He has helped them when they were in their worst case scenario. I would argue that they are just looking at things in a super optimistic point of view. I would not resist what He has to tell me cuz I'm so used to what they are trying to get you to do. I've been in this kind of occasion since I was in elementary school. I dunno...It's just really hard for me to believe in anything or anyone. But I am hoping to change.

I LUV Criminal Minds so much!!!

So my best buddy has brought me into a wonderful world: The world of Criminal Minds. OMG, I just love the show so much. People are so cool and smart about what they do: profile people and catch the serial killers. Totally my heroes....And y'all know how I like the CSI shows...but now I just love Criminal Minds [muah muah] XD.. I still like CSI tho [ahem] ...Oh Oh, and the quotes from every episode are cool and meaningful too. Here is one of them:

"Light thinks it travels faster than anything but it is wrong. No matter how fast light travels, it finds the darkness has always got ther first, and is waiting for it."
---Terry Pratchett

Don't forget to watch it!!! It's the best. (at least for me) :P

This is only the beginning.!?

I sorta had a good start in April...Until the department at the graduate school verifies my final GPA, I'll be officially accepted into the Criminalistics graduate program (yes! it is forensic science!!!). This is what they told me in the letter. I would still be worried unless I got a "real" official acceptance letter from the department. [sigh] This is just how they do things...postponed the application deadline without notifying anyone, added another prerequisite course without notifying anyone again, and this time they did notify me about the status of my application but it's not confirmed!!! What do they want from me!!!?? I am starting to lose my patience on everything. And when people begin to tell me what and how I should do things, I will lose my temper too!! Recently, I've been learning to not show any emotional expression on my face cuz I was told that it was just too easy to guess what the hell I was thinking. I don't want people to know what I'm thinking no more...cuz that would make those people think that they are sOooooooooo smart! And there was this girl...she thinks she is everything..just pissed me off...always acts so friendly n nice in front of me and asks for favors all the time. Ok, it's not like I'm waiting for her to pay me back or anything...I just need a little respect...perhaps just a little tiny thank-you will do!!? And she always pretends to help me out a lot but who knows what she told the others behind my back. You may say I'm just being cynical but this is what is happening to me. Now, I needa find a way to break the bond between us. Darn it....Can't my life just be hypocrite-free????

What's wrong?

Sometimes being nice to people seems just too much for me. Because I do it for you, it doesn't mean that you can take it for granted. I think I deserve at least a thank-you. These days people (esp those younger ones) are just living without any manners. What's wrong with them? If you think that you're well educated just because you get all A's in your classes and have a damn good 4.0 GPA. Let me tell you this: you are so not educated cause you don't even understand what is education and how important it is. Screw those impolite and arrogant jerks! Stop taking advantage on nice people. What you will do to them is turn them into mean people...Is that what you want? So, next time, when other people are doing you a favor, please say thank you. I mean it's just two words. How hard could that be?

[lost in life]

So I've applied to graduate school for forensic science...still waiting for the result. I really have no idea or confidence on how it is going to turn out to be. IF I do get into the program, I will be a CSI!! (Has anyone not watched it?) But I think I'm running out of patience, passion, and, most important, time and money... I expect to reach some achievements in the year of 2009, but it just doesn't seem that easy to come by. I mean I could use a bit of luck. Well, I guess God forgot to place "luck" into my DNA when he created me...Don't think I'm a big fans of biology...it would be the last thing I want to study or talk about. And the microbiology class that I'm taking is just driving me crazy. Everything is just a blur to me. If only I can I find a purpose of doing this and that, it'd be easier to me to suck it up. I mean...I don't even know what the heck I am doing. I feel like a child getting lost in a huge scary tropical forest and never gonna get out of there. Oh man, I am so disoriented now. Where is my compass??